beat shop street style

Today I got hit with some major blog inspiration and headed to Troy for a photoshoot with my friend Brian (insta: @brianharat). We stopped in at the River Street Beat Shop and got some really dope photos. The shop is so amazingly retro and colorful, so I had a really fun time playing around with colors/grain etc. when editing these photos to create a really cool theme for this post. I hope you love how these turned out like I do. Scroll to the end of the post for outfit details!

7Ok this photo is my favorite, like WOW sorry I’m just so excited about it… like how the floors match the checkers in my sweatshirt and how it reflects in my sunglasses, and how the colors turned out. So so happy with this!

1108I know I’m always in Troy, but this is probably one of my favorite locations I’ve shot at so far. I actually posted photos on my blog from the outside of this shop (the one with the red pants) but the inside is even cooler. Such a cool place, the owner is super cool, and I love the vibes. Go check it out if you’re ever in Troy!

42Today’s look has been my go-to outfit lately for a lazy day, with a high fashion/street style spin! Even though it’s super comfortable, it still looks so put together and like I put in a ton of effort. You all know pops of red are my favorite, so of course that’s what I did with this outfit. I took major inspo from New York Fashion Week the past couple weeks, and I can definitely attribute this one to Christian Cowan’s Fall/Winter 2018 RTW. I’ve been loving the checkered pattern lately!

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Outfit details:

Sweatshirt: Forever 21 – easily my best purchase ever, I wear this literally all the time. Men’s sweatshirts are too nice.
Pants: Adidas
Jacket: American Eagle – no longer available but this one from Urban is very similar
Shoes: H&M – I got these on super clearance for like $10 but here are some similar ones
Sunglasses: Amazon – how extra are these??? I love them!
Bag: Vintage Gucci from my mama’s closet (this purse is my literal CHILD I love it so much)

Hope you all enjoyed today’s photos! If you have any posts you’d like to see me do soon, feel free to make some requests! I was thinking a how to wear fishnets lookbook up next, and upcoming spring fashion trends too! I love feedback, so let me know what you guys are liking and what you want to see.

xoxo,

emma

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a year in mirror pics

oh hi there! long time no see (because I suck at posting)

[if you only care to see my mirror pics, feel free to skip reading this, I won’t be mad. I’m an English major and I can’t shut up once I start typing something.]

I decided I would finally try to get back into posting on my blog. I’ve honestly found it’s really hard for me to do things completely for myself (like posting on my blog) anymore. Between school, Her Campus, work, trying to have a social life, sleeping, maybe attempting to maintain my sanity, etc., there’s basically no time for blog posting or being creative at all. A New Years resolution of mine is definitely to try to take some time for myself, and do more creative things, including posting on my blog. I find that being creative keeps me balanced and I feel more happy when I’m making art, so I’d like to strive towards that more often.

That being said, a huge issue I have with my blog is photos. If you know me in real life, I basically dress to the nines every single day. Whether I’m going out and doing things or just going to class, my outfits basically always look blog-worthy. But it’s hard to find the time to take out my nice camera, ask one of my friends to plan a time to take photos, and go out and actually shoot some nice photos for a blog post. I’m also a perfectionist and expect a lot from myself, so I also want to make sure all of these photos look all cohesive and Vogue-worthy and won’t post them if they aren’t edited properly or look perfect. I would love to find a friend on campus who could take photos like this of me more frequently (if that’s you, hmu).

But for the mean time, I’m known to take a ton of mirror selfies. If you have me on Instagram or Snapchat, you definitely know this, because I post them on my stories regularly. Half the time these don’t even show my face, I’m just showing off my outfit if I like it. I spend a lot of time putting together my outfits, so I enjoy sharing them with people, even if it’s just a quick snap on my phone. Just think of me like Cher from Clueless, who takes a Polaroid of her outfit everyday.

I also love saving all of my Snap Stories so I can go back and watch them. Since the New Year just started, I thought it’d be fun to go back through all of my stories from 2017 and see what I did this year. As I clicked through, I noticed all of these mirror pics, and was like hey, maybe that’s blog worthy? I started saving every mirror pic from my stories to my computer and soon realized this was quite the task. It took me several hours, and there was about… 130… of them. So after many hours later, here they all are, dated, sorted, and I’ve added cute little comments on them.

There’s a lot of these photos, so they aren’t meant to be looked at too carefully, just scrolled through quickly like a fashion slideshow of my year. All of these photos tell a little story about me– what I was doing, where on Earth I was, how I was feeling. Some of them are just normal outfits, some feature my friends, some are a little more funny.

Today I just found a journal of mine from like 2008. Inside I made a “back to school shopping list” which had some pretty funny and wild clothing pieces– zebra ballet flats, graffiti leggings, plaid shorts, boyfriend chinos, star scarf, etc. I’ve always been a pretty fashionable kid and I paid close attention and detail to clothing trends and runway shows and all that. No doubt I thought these clothing pieces were the height of my fashion aesthetic at the time. On the side of the page, I wrote “in for fall” and made a list of fashion trends I’d probably seen in magazines or online. Below it there was an “in for me” list which was all of the things I was wearing at the time.
I couldn’t help but laugh because it’s still so relevant to myself ten years later; you can tell from all of my 2017 mirror pics that I’m usually dressing to what’s “in for me.”

Another resolution of mine is to stop caring so much what other people want/think/tell me to do. Sometimes I hold back with my clothing or feel uncomfortable because I feel like people are staring at me or judging what I wear. I get upset when my friends tell me clothing I like is ugly. I’ve decided this year I’ll keep dressing for what’s “in for me,” not what’s “in” for everyone else.
I originally felt hesitant to post all of these mirror selfies because they’re truly a raw look into my life and a really unpolished glimpse at how I look all the time. I thought about people judging me for it and how that would make me feel so upset if people hated it because that would mean they hate what’s essentially me– how I look and express myself and live my life.
But then I remembered, I don’t really need to care what people think of me.

Take these mirror pics as you’d like to. Outfit inspiration, a story of my life, a diary. Here’s a glimpse into my life in 2017, unedited, without the fancy camera. Enjoy!

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a pop of red – fall lookbook

HI EVERYONE!!! Here I finally am with a new blog post for you. Summer was a whirlwind of fun (and work), but it went by way too fast and I never got myself out to take photos for a blog post… for some reason being back at school makes me more inspired to wear cute outfits and put together lookbooks to take pictures of. Or maybe that’s just because I’m actually forced to get dressed and look presentable to see my fellow student population every day– well, most days… even I’m guilty of looking homeless sometimes.
It’s actually so crazy to look at my last blog post (that was in February? Embarrassing…) and think about how much I’ve changed even since then. My life is totally different, my fashion sense, everything. I like to think I’m even a better writer now (hopefully that English degree is paying off). I love to see myself growing as a person and hopefully you people who have read my blog since the beginning– that was a year ago by the way– love seeing it too!

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I’ve noticed that I’ve gotten a LOT more daring with my fashion recently, which definitely results in some stares when you go to a college where practically everyone wears athletic clothes all the time. Lately, I’ve been super into an obnoxious shade of red, which I’ve learned will definitely get you some head-turns in the dining hall. Everything I’ve been buying is this bright red color, like my new Michael Kors wallet I got for my birthday and the pants I wore in this post. I went out to my favorite photoshoot location (River Street in Troy) and put together a couple fun, street-style outfits for you to show you how I integrate pops of red into everyday outfits. I can’t wait to get back to doing more shoots and even more artistic concepts for my upcoming blog posts… I have a whole list of ideas already!

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The amazing culotte pants that I’m wearing for this outfit are from Copper Fox Boutique (@copperfoxshop_troy on Instagram) in Troy. Since they had a half off rack last week, I got them for a great deal for only $25. Copper Fox has been one of my all-time favorite shops since it opened about a year ago, with super adorable unique clothing and a fun bohemian vibe. It’s one of my favorite best-kept Troy secrets. These pants are also super comfy with a lightweight material and elastic waistband, I couldn’t pass them up.

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My top is a super simple striped crop top from Forever 21 that I’ve had for a couple of years, but I’m sure there’s tons of similar ones all over the place. When you’re wearing a statement piece like these pants, it’s best to keep everything else super simple and neutral. I like pairing black & white with red the best, and the pattern on the top really helps to break everything up with the huge solid block of red in the pants. If I’m wearing flowy pants like this, I always like to wear a tight, short shirt on top to balance it out so I don’t look too frumpy.

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For my shoes, I also got these for a great deal (like 10 bucks, literally) on the clearance rack at Target this summer. They match the pants so perfectly I couldn’t help but wear them together. I’ve been super into the espadrille style all summer, so I wanted to put them to good use before it gets too cold out! They’re all sold out now, but these wedges from Target are very similar if you want the same kind of look.

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By the way, if you’ve never been to the River Street Beat Shop, I highly recommend. 10/10 super cool record shop and photo shoot location.

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My next outfit is something I actually wore to class the other day and just threw back on again to put into this lookbook. I’ve been loving a more streetwear-inspired look lately, and this outfit definitely shows that. I mixed together some more casual and edgy aspects to achieve the perfect balance. The faux leather jacket I’m wearing is a must-have from Forever 21, I got it about a year ago but they definitely still have tons of similar, well-priced ones there right now.

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My super comfy black harem pants from H&M are one of my new favorite wardrobe staples, another great deal I got for only $17.99 (it looks like they’re sold out online, but they definitely still have them at my local store in Crossgates). I kept the comfy look going with my favorite pair of black high-top Vans — mine are the Slim style because I like the lower profile. I highly recommend investing in either a pair of black Vans or Converse (I have both) since I wear mine to death.

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My pop of red comes from my tube top, which I actually DIY’d by cutting the top off of a red spaghetti-strap tank top from the kid’s section of Walmart. I mean, you’d never know right…? Works for me.
I pulled the red together even more with my red lips and topped it off with my favorite pair of silver hoop earrings (I’m telling you, hoops are back in action). When I’m wearing a busy outfit like this one, I always like to throw my hair into a top knot bun to keep it out of the way. Plus, it works really well when I hopped out of shower 10 minutes before class so I don’t have to use a hairdryer.

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My last outfit features some of my favorite vintage clothes that I got at the Troy Flea Market (I swear I don’t get everything I own in Troy, I don’t know what’s wrong with me). I got these amazing vintage Levi jeans from La Relance Clothing (@la_relance on Instagram). They fit me like they were made for me and my friends make fun of me for wearing them too much. My scarf is vintage 13 Rue Cambon Paris Chanel, which is one of my most prized possessions.

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Since my shoes and the scarf coordinated together perfectly in bright red obnoxious harmony, I made sure once again to keep the rest of my outfit super neutral with the plain jeans, a simple black belt, and a white tank top from Forever 21.

If you know anything about me, you know I’m obsessed with acai bowls, specifically Liza’s (@lizasoftroy on Instagram). I would be lying if I didn’t say I didn’t frequent there at least once a week.

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If you know me you also know I’m obsessed with Psychedellicatessen. I just got a tie-dye shirt there last week and I’m super excited about it.

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Thank you to everyone who made it all the way through this lookbook and read all of my fun commentary. If you liked this post, please let me know and give me some luv! I’m so happy to be getting back to blogging again and I can’t wait for what I have in store.

xoxo,

emma

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rompers? for winter? groundbreaking.

ppetmpdupHi everyone! I’m really excited to finally be getting back into posting fashion on my blog. For today, I just decided to do a short and sweet OOTD post. Coming up soon, I’d love to try to put together a lookbook to share even more fashion inspiration and ideas with you all!ppetmpdupProbably a lot of people think I’m crazy for wearing a romper in freezing cold upstate NY weather. But I’m usually just as warm (and a lot more comfortable) wearing a romper or skirt or dress with tights than if I were wearing pants. So, most of the time I opt against the pants. Obviously, I would normally be wearing my thick puffer parka anytime I’m outside (plus sometimes a hat and gloves), but for the purposes of the photos, I took that off.

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Today, I was just in the mood to wear a romper. When I woke up, I was wishing that the sun would come out all the snow would melt and finally it would be spring, but unfortunately I don’t think that’s in my immediate future here in upstate NY. I went for the romper anyways, because who says you can’t wear rompers in winter?

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Here’s my best advice for how to pull off a romper/skirt/dress even in the coldest of weather:

1) LAYERS!
It may be obvious, but if you want to stay warm, layering is key. I actually ended up wearing a long-sleeved off the shoulder bodysuit under my romper. It’s a huge trend right now to layer even a basic tee or turtleneck underneath a tank top or anything with spaghetti straps, so try to get creative with it. I’m always trying out layering things that you normally wouldn’t think to put together, and sometimes the results are really nice.
2) Tights/Leggings
To keep your legs warm, tights and leggings underneath whatever you’re wearing is ideal. I just have like 5 pairs of black tights that I wear all the time, but you can get funky with this too. Sometimes I will wear fishnets, and there are all kinds of funky colored and designed (like lace) tights that you can try out too.
3) Jackets/Cardigans
Another obvious way to stay warm is to throw a jacket or cardigan over your dress. I could easily have paired this outfit with a nice leather jacket or chunky sweater for warmth. There are tons of options for jackets/coats/sweaters etc that you can layer on top of any outfit. Like I said, I almost always wear my parka puffer jacket when I’m walking around campus. It may not be the cutest thing, but it’s super practical and I take it off as soon as I get indoors anyways.
4) Warm Accessories
I’m super into using accessories that are practical and cute. My go-to is over the knee socks like the ones I’m wearing in this outfit. I have tons of them in different colors and textures, and they just add the perfect extra touch to an outfit. I also love popping on a hat/beanie, scarf, or bandanna around my neck for something extra, and they keep you warm too.
5) Boots
Especially in the weather lately (if you didn’t know, NY has been hit with some nasty snow storms in the past couple weeks), boots are a must. I practically always wear my Hunter boots when it’s snowing because they keep me warm, and allow me to trudge through the snow even when it’s piled up to my knees. If it’s not snowing, I’ll wear either riding boots or suede over the knee boots, and if it’s a little warmer, I’ll even throw on some booties or Converse hi-tops too.

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Over the Knee Socks: Forever 21
ppetmpdupRomper: Target (I think, its super old though)
Bodysuit: Forever 21

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I wanted to throw in the close- up pictures of the brick wall because I think it looks so cool. This wall is right outside my dorm building, so of course whenever I walk by it the blogger nerd in me always thinks about how I really want to take an OOTD in front of this cool ugly wall. So I did.

Hope you guys liked today’s OOTD! If you really like these types of posts, please let me know and I’ll do more!
s/o to my roommate Allie for standing in the cold to take pictures of my outfit!!

xoxo,

emma

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meet me in miami

Hi everyone! FINALLY I am getting around to posting all of my photos from my trip to Florida in January. As one does on a vacation, I took way too many photos and therefore it took me a really long time to sort through all of them, edit them, and get them organized so that I could put this post together. I’m really happy with how a lot of these photos turned out, and I think this is probably the most colorful and happy (and probably longest) blog post I’ll ever put up. Hope you enjoy!

january 11, 6:30 am. warwick, ny.
I was lucky enough that my best friend Ariel invited me on this trip and that her grandparents let us stay with them for the time we were there. Even though it was a short 3 day trip, it was super fun and unforgettable. I drove to Ariel’s hometown the day before our trip (and we went on a super cool hike, but that will be a whole other blog post).  Her mom dropped us off at the airport in New Jersey and we were off, and luckily we caught a nice sunrise on the way.ppetmpdup

8:00 am. newark liberty international airport, new jersey.
We had to wake up super early to catch our plane, but we didn’t mind so much to be going from the frosty 30 degree mountain winds to warm and sunny 80 degree Florida. This was a super fun experience for me because it was my first plane ride. I loved going on the plane and I can’t wait to travel by air some more as soon as possible!

3:30 pm. hollywood beach, florida
Obviously there’s a little break in time here where I didn’t take any photos that involved us flying, frantically catching multiple ubers, and eventually finding our way to the beach. We decided to rent some cute bikes and ride up and down the boardwalk to the various shops and restaurants. You can tell from these photos that it was super windy and wearing skirts to go bike riding probably wasn’t our best idea. ppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdup

january 12th. 12 pm. fort lauderdale, florida
The next day, we decided to make ourselves breakfast then head off to Miami for the beach.

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3 pm. south beach, florida
One of the fun little stops we made was this super cute smoothie/ acai bowl cafe in Miami called Under the Mango Tree. The smoothie bowls were delicious and very photogenic.ppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdupAfter that, we hit the beach for some sun. ppetmpdupppetmpdup

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5:30 pm. miami, florida.
We wanted to take a walk around South Beach and check out some more shops and restaurants. We accidentally ended up spending way too much money on a fancy drink at The Sugar Factory.ppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdup

january 13th. 11:30 am. fort lauderdale, florida.
This day, we took a really cool boat tour around the Fort Lauderdale waterfront. There’s tons of beautiful houses around there, so it was cool to see.ppetmpdupppetmpdup3:00 pm. coconut creek, florida.
I think this was my favorite part of the entire trip, or at least the part that I found most photo-worthy, as you can see. We went to Butterfly World, which is this beautiful enclosed garden full of amazing butterflies. It’s like a little fantasy world, and it was just a wonderful and fun experience. I’ve always loved butterflies, so second grade me was dying a little inside. Also, I hadn’t seen pretty flowers like this in months, so it was nice in comparison to the frigid New York setting I’d gotten used to. 6243751952_IMG_0964ppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdup6243751952_IMG_0939The garden had a beautiful little waterfall and stone bridge with water spraying from it, which looked absolutely amazing in the sunlight.ppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdup6243751952_IMG_09846174565056_IMG_09886243751952_IMG_0962Outside of the garden was this really beautiful pool with fountains and a suspension bridge over it.ppetmpdupppetmpdupThese parrots were really chill.ppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdupAriel also got to feed some cute tropical birds.ppetmpdupppetmpdupppetmpdup

february 9. 7:15 pm. loudonville, ny.

Ironically, I got to finally finish this blog post because we had a snow day and classes were cancelled. I’m snuggled up in bed avoiding the frigid winter winds and three feet of snow outside that all of New York is currently covered with. And avoiding the essays I should be writing. And wishing I could be back at the beach in 80 degree sunshine.
I hope you guys enjoyed this post, it was really fun for me to make and look at all of the photos I took while I was there! I hope you liked how I put it together, I was trying out a different kind of writing style too!
More posts (especially fashion ones) coming soon!

xoxo,

emma

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the tang

Hi everyone! FINALLY I am going to be back doing regular blog posts again!!! For today’s post, I’ll be going back in time a couple of weeks to a rainy day I spent with my friend Erin at the Tang Museum in Saratoga. I have a lot of photos I took over winter break that will be perfect for many upcoming blog posts, so it’s just a matter of organizing, editing, and compiling them into the posts. Now that I am back at school, I feel a lot more inspired to get working on my blog. Which doesn’t seem to make much sense because now I have other homework assignments to do on top of it, but time crunches work for me so I’m just gonna go with it.

I’m super excited because these are really the first photos from my brand new camera (Canon Rebel T6) that I will be posting on my blog. Mind you, these are not amazing because I still have a lot to learn about photography and editing. I am currently taking a Digital Photography class so I will be learning a lot more about photography from that class and also just from practice, so I think it will be cool to see how my photos/blog posts improve over time.

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If you live in the Albany/Saratoga area, I highly recommend checking out The Tang. It’s a pretty small museum located at Skidmore College, but it’s always a fun quick trip for a cold rainy day (plus it’s free). Erin and I really wanted to check out this new exhibit, which features this really awesome chalkboard-wall piece called Drawing Memory by artist Victor Ekpuk. A bunch of the walls inside the exhibit were painted with black chalkboard paint, and then the artist drew all these complex designs all along them in chalk.

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This exhibit is called Sixfold Symmetry: Pattern in Art and Science, so all of the pieces are inspired by scientific, mathematic, and technological principals. With my own background in studying Biochemistry (and just my overall fascination with science), I found this exhibit to be extremely interesting because I personally also like to integrate scientific ideas and principals into my own creative writing and art. Seeing these connections throughout all of these pieces made the experience of the exhibit really intriguing, and I think a lot of people would enjoy the exhibit whether they are more artistically or scientifically minded, because it’s a good mix of both.

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(this one was my favorite, I love how the light play worked with the mirrors/metallic surface and how new designs are made from the reflections and shadows of the piece. so cool)

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I think my favorite part about the exhibit is kind of the “perfection” of it. If you’re the type of perfectionist who likes to always have things symmetrically organized into patterns, measured out perfectly, and balanced, then I imagine you would appreciate this type of art. A lot of people probably look at patterns in art and think of them as basic or boring, but there is a lot more that goes into a pattern or perfectly symmetrical design than you would probably think. The complexity yet perfection of such designs and art pieces is very intriguing to me. I find it to be extremely calming and satisfying to look at this type of art, and psychologically it’s kind of nice to have a sense of order inside this isolated space among a world of chaos.

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Also, if you do go check out The Tang, I highly recommend going in the elevator (sorry I don’t have any good pictures of it). The building is only 2 stories high so it may seem really unnecessary, but there’s funky music and bean bags in there so you might even end up going up and down a couple extra times just for fun like we did.

Also s/o to Erin for the fun day and also for taking some of these fabulous photos for me… you know we really worked the aesthetic. If anyone is curious what I am wearing:

black turtleneck: idk
(fake) leather jacket: Forever 21
grey bodycon tank dress: Forever 21
fishnets: Forever 21
over the knee socks: Forever 21
shoes: Payless
(wow I honestly didn’t mean to wear that much Forever 21, # not sponsored but like if you wanna sponsor me I’d be down)

Song of the day: Verona by Geographer
I decided I want to add in a “song of the day” that I think is appropriate to go along with the blog post for whatever reason, because I love music and integrating it into all parts of my life, and also being able to share my favorite music with others. For today’s post I thought of this song mostly because the album cover is all geometric and symmetrical looking so it made me think of the art at The Tang, and the sound just kind of reminds me of technological, science-y kind of things. And it’s also just one of my faves.

I can’t wait to get some more blog posts up very soon! I will probably keep working on them today before I start really getting bombarded with the school work. I hope everyone else who is going back to school this week has a great syllabus week too!

xoxo,

emma

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s i x t e e n

-2016-

Um, first of all… sorry I haven’t posted in over a month. I really lost track of time ever since going back to school from Thanksgiving break. Anyone who’s in college understands, the time from Thanksgiving to Christmas is just absolute grind time. So, I found my time/energy/creativity completely devoted to wrapping up my classes and finals. Then once I got back home I really didn’t feel like staring at a computer screen for a couple weeks, so I just took a break from the blog thing. No worries, I’ll start to post more regularly again now!

(sorry this post is a lot of text and no pictures, I have a lot of recent pictures from this year but not ones from the beginning of 2016 since my phone broke so I figured I just wouldn’t really put pictures at all)

I wanted to write a little something to wrap up my year of 2016. I feel like the general consensus for this year is that it sucked and everyone wants it to end ASAP. I can’t say I agree. I think 2016 has been one of the best years of my life for many reasons, but it’s also definitely time for me to move along to 2017 too. I don’t really believe in resolutions or “new year, new me” but if the new year is an excuse for me to leave some things behind in 2016 I think I’ll take advantage of it.

I honestly don’t think I’m ever going to forget this year. I’ve changed so much more as a person than I ever thought I could in such a short period of time. I honestly feel like I’ve accomplished so much and I’ve done a complete 360 (for the better) within this past year. When I think back on the year, for some reason I always think to a tarot card reading that I received during the summer. I went to get this reading right in the middle of everything changing around for me, and it really reassured me that I was moving in the right direction for my life. This was a 3 card reading, so she split it into past, present, and future. Looking back on it, I see these as representing the beginning, middle, and end of 2016.
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The picture above are the three cards that I pulled- III of cups, the world, and judgement. The tarot card reader (her name is Ashley, she’s the best) first told me that the world- the “present” where I was at the time of the reading- is practically the best card you can get. She said it meant that I felt whole, like everything had finally come together, and I finally felt complete and fulfilled, at the peak of happiness and it was just like everything was going right in my life. I agreed completely. I hadn’t really ever been so happy before, and everything was going so great for me that summer. Everything was right, the world was mine.

She then said that the III of cups card- my past- symbolized that there were things holding me back in the past. I was stuck or held behind by people, places, and ideas that weren’t truly inspiring me. The three birds represented those things that were stopping me from reaching my full potential (the world). I look at this card as the beginning of 2016. I felt held back by a lot of old people, old ideas, old places for a long time. I had been dealing with anxiety and stress that made me physically ill, and some of the things I was doing with my life and people I was with at the time weren’t making those things any better. I started out the year as a Biochemistry major, thinking I wanted to transfer to pharmacy school. I didn’t feel like I fit in at Siena but I didn’t know if I would fit in at pharmacy school either. I was sad, uninspired, feeling lonely and stressed out all the time. I didn’t feel like I was going in the right direction with my life. I was consumed by my workload at school, and I didn’t even like it much. I was chasing dreams that weren’t mine, trying to convince myself to be a person I wasn’t. There was no balance in my life, no room for fun or creativity that I was in desperate need of.

It wasn’t until the end of my freshman year (around April 2016) that all this started changing for me. I started meeting some new people and forming new relationships with wonderful friends and I finally started feeling like I was fitting in. The friends I made around this time remain my best friends at school right now, and I love them so much. I finally have a group of people that I feel that I belong with and that really care about me and they want the best for me, and I can’t say I’ve always had friends like that, so I’m forever grateful for them. I decided at this point to forget pharmacy school and stay at Siena, which is a decision I am so thankful for.

As a result of meeting new people, I ended up finally cutting a lot of relationships that hadn’t been good for me for a while. It’s not easy to do this, but I really feel like it was what I had to do to get rid of so many negative aspects of my life. Those birds on the tarot card, that were holding me back, I had to let go. Ashley  told me that is what the “future” card, judgment, symbolized. I was that white bird, flying above all of the others at the bottom of the card that had been holding me back. I didn’t have any guilt in cutting some people out of my life and starting fresh with new things, it just felt right. The new people I was meeting were encouraging me to change my life around for the better.

As summer began, I became more adventurous. I discovered my love for mountains and waterfalls and road trips (Bash Bish s/o to you). I decided to finally switch my major over to English (and got a lot of “I told you so’s” from basically everyone about it). I started making more art. I started loving good music again. I decided to become more dedicated to the club that I am part of at Siena, Her Campus. I started to pursue my love of fashion and art again.
I fell in love with a person, like, really hard. I thought I knew what love was before that, but I quickly realized I really didn’t. This was new, and that’s exciting and scary all at once. I then learned that same love can hurt, A LOT, when things don’t work out in your favor– that came a little later though.

It all happened so quickly, but I had learned so much in a few months. My anxiety was thousands times better. I wasn’t nearly so stressed anymore. I didn’t feel sick every single time I ate anymore. My skin started clearing up after a many-year battle with acne. I was finally bettering myself in almost every way possible, I was happy, and I felt like I was finally being the best me. The world was in my hands for once in my life.

Now the part of 2016 that I’m currently wrapping up- the “future” card in my tarot reading- is the part that’s the most bittersweet. I’ve had to come to terms that even though I don’t feel quite as happy and complete as I did this summer, things are still going in the right direction for me. Maybe I’m not feeling like “the world” anymore, but that doesn’t mean things are going down from there. I’ve faced a lot of ups and downs in the past months and things that I needed to overcome and learn from. I learned that some people and things had come into my life and then they needed to leave too, and that’s hard if they made you happy at one point and you don’t want to let that go. I still have a lot more “letting go” to do in my life, which is really hard sometimes. But I’ve started to really believe that everything happens for a reason, you meet everyone for a reason, and sometimes that reason is to help you realize things about yourself that you wouldn’t have otherwise. And for that I am grateful for every person and place I encounter along the way.

In the past couple months, I realized that switching to an English major with a Writing and Communications minor was the best decision I could have ever made. I went back to Siena this semester as a whole new person, in a good way. I closed up the semester with a 4.0 GPA, which I’m so proud of. I started this blog, which is something I’ve been wanting to do for YEARS, and I’m happy with where it’s headed. I’ve become closer to some wonderful friends who I love so dearly and I am so, so grateful to have in my life. I’ve finally learned to have some fun at college with my friends. I got a position I had been dreaming of, Campus Correspondent (kind of like co-president) of Her Campus, and I can’t wait to take that on next year. I’ve become a lot more interested in photography, and I just got a new camera so I’m really excited to learn more about that. I’ve been reading and writing and thinking creatively a lot more.

Most of all, I’ve learned what things are worth keeping in my life and putting effort into and what things aren’t. I realized that I can make my life what I want it to be, I can go wherever I want, be whoever I want, spend my time with whoever I want, and if something isn’t inspiring me, I can just let it go.

thank you 2016 for being pretty cool and especially wild. 2017, please be even cooler and wilder.

(if you actually read this whole thing, PLEASE tell me because you’re the best person ever, and thanks for caring.)

happy new year!

xoxo,

emma

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friendsgiving

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Happy thanksgiving eve everyone! Finally everyone is getting back home from college, so this morning I met up with my girl Molly for a lil coffee date. Catching up with friends for the holidays is my favorite thing about going home! Not to be cheesy, but I truly am so thankful for spending time with my amazing friends.

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I was recommended this coffee bar in Troy called Superior Merchandise Company, so we went to go check it out. I loved the style of the place, and I wish I could’ve gotten more pictures of the shop because it’s totally my style. The front has a shop area with all different kinds of little gifts and home decor items. And the coffee/food was delicious– we both tried out the smoked maple pecan latte and pumpkin butter toast for a little friendsgiving feast.

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Also I thought I’d throw in my outfit (really my face) details because I was loving my edgy winter look today. Of course it’s one of those days where I wish I took a full outfit picture but didn’t 🙁

Not pictured: I was wearing my plain black turtleneck, long puffy black winter coat, ripped jeans with fishnets underneath, and chelsea boots. My beanie is from Target (pro tip I got it from the men’s section so it only cost $5 as opposed to the same thing that cost $20 in the women’s section), my sunglasses are from a boutique in Troy called Copper Fox (probably will have a blog post coming up soon about this place because I love it), and my lipstick is Revlon Ultra HD Liquid Matte in “Infatuation.”

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Happy thanksgiving everyone!

xoxo,

emma

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weekend in oney

This weekend I got to go visit my best friend Sofie and her roommate Abby at their college in Oneonta. They go to a really tiny college in the mountains called Hartwick, and I kind of fell in love with it. They gave me the grand tour of the area for the day, showing me around their school (peep Abby’s adorable succulents) and also around town.

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My favorite part about Oneonta was obviously the gorgeous mountain views (I’m sure everyone knows by now that I’m obsessed). There’s a little dirt road you can take up the back of their campus that opens up to this field with a beautiful view, and we happened to be able to catch the sunset there and get some nice photos. I’m sure you can see why I’m in love with this place!

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After our little adventure, we headed to town for some dinner. We went to the cutest little coffee shop called the Latte Lounge that I was absolutely in love with, and it also had the coolest book store connected to it too! It was so nice to see what a college town like Oneonta is like because we don’t really have anything like that where I go to school. I also just love being able to visit my friends like Sofie that I’ve known for years and get a little glimpse of their college lives.

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(S/O to Abby and Sofie for letting me visit this weekend, you’re the best. I’ll be back soon!)

xoxo,

emma

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autumn textures

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Hi everyone! I’m finally getting up a blog post again… college has gotten the best of me the past couple of weeks. Luckily, I think this post is at least worth the wait. I’m really trying to make my posts a lot more artistic and editorial looking, and I’m really happy with how these photos turned out for going in that direction. Of course, it helps to have someone who actually knows what they’re doing with a camera (I’m working on it though, at least I registered for Digital Photography next semester). These were photographed by David Haston (insta: @davidhaston) and I love how all of them turned out.

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For this shoot, I got to chill at an abandoned barn, which meant that these photos ended up with some pretty cool autumn-inspired textures– the gorgeous leaves reaching their last phase of color, the dilapidated wood, the dying grasses. I was also playing with some contrasting textures in my outfit, with my soft and chunky sweater, suede boots, and fishnet tights. I personally think the best thing about dressing for fall is being able to layer on all different kinds of materials, so I love thinking up new combinations for textures like I did with this outfit.

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I hope you guys love this post as much as I do, I just get really inspired by the fall weather. I promise I’ll have a lot more consistent posts coming up very soon!

xoxo,

emma

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